I am so excited to be seeing my Mom. I am uber excited to be moving. I have so much planned. I can't wait to get started. I am learning to move on and be my own person. I am becoming more and more caring for the people who want to be cared for. I am learning to back off from people who don't like their space to be invaded. I am learning to listen to those who need listening to. I am learning who wants to listen to me. I am tired though of people who don't listen and just want to give advice. I don't want advice. I just want to be understood. Sometimes I just want to Shout. STOP!
Anyway my main focus is my Mom, Grandma K, Lori P and Taryn. They are people that really matter right now. I feel like I can tell them anything and vice versa. They say what they mean and do what they plan. I can rely on them. For now I trust them.
I find that I trust and depend on people easily and than it usually back fires. I give and I give and I usually feel used in the end. For right now I am going to let things flow and make darn sure that I am understood.
I will let people know that you have to be blunt and honest with me or I will over analyze things and think people are making promises. So say what you mean or tell me from the beginning that you aren't going to do something. If you say we are going to do this, I am going to expect and anticipate doing it. I will feel let down if you change your mind. So don't make plans if you don't intend to keep them. Always follow through with what you say, other wise don't say anything at all.
I take things literally. I am spontaneous unless I have something to preoccupy my time with. Other wise I get bored. I like to keep people updated and tell them everything. Whether they want to hear it or not. I like to learn from people and share my views and opinions. I am a good listener. I can talk your ear off too.
For the most part I like the way I am now. I like the people who like me and support me. That is what I am looking for. Support and stability. I don't need anyone telling me what to do. Let me learn and make mistakes. I am tired of being taken care of to a point.